"And heal the world with your words", she said. That statement has stood with me for about a week now. I had a Reiki session done with someone I have never met before and she told me part of my journey on this Earth was to heal. She probably saw the state of confusion fall across my face, as I had no idea how I was supposed to do that.

I have never really spoke much about my faith or spirituality here on the blog. I felt called to talk about this today and share a bit of my beliefs and where I have stood most of my life on some of these matters.

I was baptized Catholic as this is what both of my parents were. We were never church goers as a family. We were military and we moved a lot. We didn't have family around and it just seemed easier to not go.

I never quite fit in anywhere we went. I was shy, quiet, and always paying attention to everything around me. I asked my parents once to go to Sunday school (I am not sure what church this was for to this day, I suppose I could ask) with my friends because a bus picked them up and took them to somewhere I assumed was fun.

My mom finally let me go, and friends, I will tell you I was scared to death of what I learned. I heard so much talk about the devil that day, and then was given candy to calm me down. I wasn't quite sure this was the place for me. I was 7 and made my mind up about religion.

As I got older I dabbled in things here and there when it came to religion, but nothing quite stuck. I was always drawn to living a spiritual life. Peaceful and kind. I have always been interested in astrology, tarot cards, and healing stones. I believed in spirits and guides. No one ever told me about these things. I just somehow knew.

When I was in my mid 20's I went on a hunt for a new church. I was going through some hard times and I was drawn to hear about faith. I must of visited 5 or 6 new churches in a 2 month time frame.. None of them seemed to fit. I tried all kinds of denominations.

When I moved away from family and felt alone and stressed I joined a yoga studio. I needed something to get me out of the house and interacting with new people. It is here I truly found my beliefs in faith and spirituality.

Yoga healed me soul. It not only helped my body physically, it helped me mentally and spiritually. I knew this is where I was meant to focus my time. I wanted to honor all souls in my practice. This included humans, animals, and plants. All living things basically.

So back to healing the world. It is said we all have the power to heal. The energy in our body can perform miracles if we let it. We all have gifts we can offer. For me, I have always had a way with listening and with words. Even when I am at my worst, I can still soothe someone with what I have to say.

I was told I needed to keep writing. I needed to keep inspiring. This is how I will heal the world. I honor that but also know once I am ready, yoga will have a big part of how I can help people on need. Maybe it is not just in the poses I offer that help people, but my words. I do not know I want to keep practicing to find out.

Thank you for listening to a little zen between the chaos today my friends. I would love to hear your take on spirituality and what you do and don't believe in. I do not want this to be a place to argue or be unkind to one another. It is a safe space where I truly want you to feel safe talking about this.

Have a wonderful week.

Love, Light, and Namaste,

Oh Hey. Long time no talk. I am sitting here trying to process the past 2 weeks and even I haven't been able to comprehend it yet.

So here's what happened. I quit my job. Let me say that again, mostly for me.. I. Quit. My. Job.

Guys, this has been one of the scariest things I have ever done for myself.

I say for myself because I was sick. My health was failing due to the amounts of stress that was overcoming me on a daily basis. I was caring for my infant son while working 40 hours a week. Think about that for a moment. You bring your 4 month old to work with you. You have to tend to his needs PLUS tend to work needs.

Yeah. Not a pretty picture. It's not easy. Don't ever let someone who works from home and takes care of their kids let you believe it is easy. They may put up a good front, but let me tell you, it is so hard. Make sure you praise those people often and offer help whenever you can. I promise you they will be grateful.

Now I am not a quitter. I don't believe in quitting when it gets hard. But this time it was different. Not only was it hard, but my heart was not in it anymore. That is when I knew it was time to go. My heart was going in another direction.

I wanted to bond with my son, but couldn't because I was tired after tending to his needs and working. When I was done working and R got home, I handed bloob over to him and needed a break. This was not how I pictured raising my son.

I took a leap of faith and invested in me. I followed my heart on this one. And even after ending my job, the weight wasn't instantly gone like I had hoped it would be. Nope. There were are still many things I need to address within myself and my home to make that weight completely lift.

This was a start. This was me finally being brave. That brave moment lead me to another moment of heartache and stress. My cat went missing on my third day not working. My baby boy as I call him. Today is day 13 that he has been missing. I have been all over this neighborhood. I have called him. I have put up flyers. I have set traps. I am at an absolute loss on where he is.

My heart is broken and is trying to find the silver lining. Today I found the strength to write about this mess I have been in. I'm hoping for a better tomorrow. I am praying for the strength to be positive that things will finally work out.

Today is hard. Yesterday was hard. Hoping for an easier tomorrow.

Namaste my friends.

Today I feel like that same college freshman standing in front of my TV in shock. Confused is an understatement. What in the world just happened? What now?

17 years ago on a Tuesday life changed forever. We all woke up same as always. I thought about how much I disliked my history class. Seems ironic now. We all went to bed a different person.

 A war of hatred was brought to life here on US soil. In 17 years I've seen things change so drastically it makes me wonder how it could get any worse. And then it does.

September 11th, 2001 was like something you would see in a movie. Not real life. Not in your own backyard. This is an event that our children learn about in their history classes today.

Children who weren't here to experience it, yet have a large crowd of people at their finger tips who were here that day. Their parents. Their siblings. Their grandparents. Their aunts and uncles. Their teachers.

We can all give them our version of this horrific day.  They are all unique to it's storyteller but the feeling is always the same. Shock.

So today, as I write every year on this day is a reminder. One decision can change the world. In this case, it was a bad decision. One that had major consequences. But it was a decision a group of people thought up and made happen.

It is a reminder that our actions have consequences and outcomes. Some of these things we can never take back once they are done. Some of these things can change everything you ever thought you knew about life.

Make the right choice. Do the right thing. Love one another even if you don't have the same beliefs. See a different perspective. If possible agree to disagree. But don't fight with someone just because they are different. And don't fight with yourself just because you don't think the same as the next person.

Just be kind.

One day you may be in their shoes. You may have thought you'd never be doing what you are, but things changed. That's what happened to me yesterday.

Things changed.

Today I woke up in a new chapter of my life. I made a life changing choice yesterday and today at age 35 I woke up a bit in shock and a little confused just like that 18 year old girl did 17 years ago.The same question stands,

What now?

I needed something a little lighter today,  so why not link up with Kristen over at See You in a Porridge for What's New With You? It's been a while since I have done one of these updates.

First off.. Welcome September! The start of the most magical time of the year in my opinion. I love fall. I surrender to it's beauty and crisp air. We had are never getting out of this hot and humid summer, so I am praying the fall weather comes soon!

Now to be a little contradicting to my last statement, I am already dreaming of a vacation for next summer when Baby Bloob is older and I can feel more at ease about traveling a longer distance. (He currently doesn't do well in the car). I keep scrolling through Facebook looking at all of the photos my friends have posted of their annual summer trips with their kids, wondering if this will be me soon.


September is the month of my wedding anniversary. I will be celebrating 2 years on the 24th. I am working on trying to find a quick overnight getaway for me and the hubs, but not sure if that will come together as easily as I'd like.



I am working on a couple of projects here on the blog. One which is my 3 month Get Movin' challenge. This kicks off on the 10th! There is still time to sign up if you were thinking about joining us!

I have mostly given up breastfeeding. This is a topic that still toys with my emotions, but I had to take care of me. Little Bloob is still getting breast milk every day, just not as every meal. The important part is he is happy and fed and I am happier with this arrangement. It was about balance for me and this is what felt right.

I have a couple of life changes coming up and I am gearing up for them. They are all positive, but as in all change, it makes me nervous. I will talk more about this soon.

So that's what's new with me. What's new with you?

Some days when things seem a little impossible I turn to some of my favorite quotes to remind me that things are okay. I have a pretty large file of quotes for different occasions that I pull out each month to remind myself that life is good and that I've got this when things go a little south.

I told you all on Friday about my computer being fried from an electrical storm. I still have no word on whether anything will be salvageable, but they have been in contact and it's been one of those weird situations where they aren't 100% sure on what happened. I could let that get me down, but instead I set up my inspirational quotes for the coming weeks.

I thought I'd share one that stood out to me this week in case anyone else needed that little push to keep them going.

Hey! Happy Friday!

Just wanted to drop by to give a quick update..

We had some severe storms roll through the area here over the past couple of days and unfortunately my computer was a casualty to this. One of the electrical surges killed my hard drive. Sad face. I am currently crossing all my fingers and toes hoping the nice gentlemen who are working on it can at least retrieve my files.

In the meantime, it will  be a little quiet around here. I think this was the universes way of reminding me that I need to take a breather from time to time. This week was super stressful for lots of different reasons, but mostly because I am trying to do about a million things in my day lately which is leading to some burn out.

This mamma has to remind herself from time to time that she cannot be super woman every day. I can't help it. I'm a Capricorn. This is what we do. We work our little hearts out to be successful or to be helpful and then we realize we are neglecting ourselves.

Anywho, as we go into this 3 day weekend I am going to take the hint and get in some R&R and stay off my phone. Hoping to be back up and running sometime early next week.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. If you are lucky to have the 3 day weekend, I hope you stay safe and enjoy celebrating end of summer!

Namaste my loves!

You guys, Fall is just around the corner and I couldn't be more thrilled about it. Not only does all things boots, sweaters, and pumpkin come out, but it is also a time when the weather cools off. Fall is my favorite time to get outside and get active. Whether it be hiking, jump roping, yoga, or just making it to the gym, I find myself more motivated when it's not scorching hot outside.

I for one need to get active again. After bringing baby bloob into the world, this momma needs all the help she can get. I went to the gym for the first time in what seems like forever and I had a great idea.

Why not challenge myself to a healthy living challenge by logging some hours this fall. I want to help myself get back into the groove before the holidays get here.

Next thought, why not take it just a bit further and challenge all of you?

When I was a little girl I got to experience a lot of county fairs. That is one benefit of growing up in a military family. New places. New experiences. The nostalgia always comes back around when August gets here and fairs start popping up all over. One thing I never did experience as a child was a state fair.

Faith. The belief that your life will unfold as it was meant to, even when it unfolds into something painful and difficult to navigate. I read that sentence in chapter 10 of Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis. This line saved me from myself this weekend.

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Have you heard? Today is National Thrift Shop Day! This is so exciting because most of my clothes have come from thrift shops or consignment shops. Cats out the bag!

Today I want to share some of my favorite thrift finds in hopes it will encourage you to not only support your local thrift shop, but also keep clothing out of the landfills.

Last month I posted a Stitch Fix reveal that ended up turning more into a body image discussion. It's okay though because I feel like fashion and body image go hand in hand more and more these days. I was not really feeling the items I received and it also made me super self conscious about sharing the photos on the internet.

Have you ever had a memory come up in your Facebook feed that knocked some sense into you? Maybe it wasn't Facebook that reminded you, but an old photo, or someone mentioned a memory you shared with them and you thought, "oh my goodness, why didn't this idea came to me sooner?"

I have sort of been putting off this post. It has been sitting in my drafts with a bare bone summary with no real direction for a few weeks. Why is that I wonder. So here are my thoughts.

Last summer I completed my 200 hour yoga teaching certification. I even had a job lined up to teach one month before I completed my classes. I was so excited, yet terrified to start on this journey.

A little back history. I started going to yoga a few years ago when I was feeling really lost in life and felt like I needed a hobby. I chose yoga because it was a gentle gathering and I am an introvert, so going out to do a full on contact hobby wasn't going to be the right fit for me.

I wanted something to take my mind off life around me, plus get me out of my house. I spend soooo much time at home those days when I wasn't at work. I walked into a new studio that was offering a free class and I fell in love. The space is literally on a farm in the country only 15 minutes from my house.

I attended a few more free classes when they offered a beginners course of 8 weeks for a flat rate paid up front. I decided at that point this was the easiest way for me to stay committed. I went through this class and many more. I slacked at times in between but always managed to make my way back.

When I heard they were offering a yoga teacher training I got really excited, but also didn't think I could do it. I didn't think they would accept me because I had no real experience in yoga. I was still considered a beginner at this point.

I remember when I had my application interview, I met our teacher. She was magnificent to me. I remember looking at her and saying, "do you think I can do this?" She had never met me before in her life and somehow her response to me made me believe I could. I took that same story to my graduation speech that I didn't know I would be making that day. (Jeannie if you're reading this.. thanks!)

I had to look within myself to complete this long journey. I did it. I was so damn proud of myself. I felt strong and empowered in my own body.

 I started teaching almost immediately. I had a regular couple who came and it was great. Small and gave me room to experiment without too much of an audience. It was the perfect equation. I taught 2 times a week and I really loved it.

Fast forward to September when I found out I was pregnant. I continued to teach until the end of November and then I felt too tired to make the drive every day (I was teaching 45 minutes away from my house) and I put my class on hiatus. I also quit doing yoga at home. I went to one class early on and felt so sick through it, I just stopped all together.

Now here I am today. A year past my certification and I am not doing yoga at all. I didn't do it through my pregnancy, which was a big mistake on my part. Now I need to get myself back to it. I need to keep on pushing forward to get back to where I was a year ago.

I want to teach again, and if nothing else I want to have a practice of my own again. Get myself back to a place where I feel comfortable on the mat.

Right now I am in no position to teach as I am not practicing myself, so I would have to say I will not be teaching this year again, but in the future, I am saying yes, I will be teaching again. Anyone want to be my guinea pig?

The passion is still there and there is no secret that this body of mine needs some stretching, exercise, and a little peace in my mind.

Did a life change ever put a passion of yours on hold? How did you handle it?  Would love to hear your opinions on this!

Happy Friday Friends! Today is the day. I am finishing up my 100 Dreams Project. It has been 10 full weeks and I have made it to the finish line! This is a HUGE milestone for me. In the past I have definitely slacked on series and that was part of my problem here on the blog. The last 10 weeks has really shown me how to stay on track and shoot for the stars.

If I want to make these dreams come true, I had to be able to at least commit to writing them down. So drum roll please.. I present to you the final 10 dreams in my project *tear* :

91. Fly in a private plane flown by my husband (He had a pilots license many moons ago)
92. Walk in a fashion show (For petites)
93. Learn to snorkel and/or scuba dive (Another one to get over my water fear)
94. Invent something useful
95. Attend the Oscars
96. Learn to make my own wine
97. Open a Bed and Breakfast (Maybe with a vineyard?)
98. Attend the Grammy's... Again
99. Inspire other's to follow their dreams
100. Follow and achieve all of these dreams list and continue to grow past 100 dreams

I am so very happy to have you all along on this amazing journey I've been on the past 10 weeks with this project. It was very much a growth project for me and I got to know myself a little better while doing this list. It reminded me that no dream was too small or silly. I know there are more to add now that my life is evolving. I have a son and he will be a big part of my dreams moving forward. A majority of these dreams were dreams I've had my whole life.

I  have something special in mind to do with this list now that it's complete. The actual pages I wrote on that is, which by the way is so ragged and dirty looking at this point between spills and cross out and all that. I hope to share it with you once it happens!

I am going to create a page just for these dreams so they are in one place. I am excited to get them all down with links, pictures, and such to make it that much more visual for myself and anyone else who is struggling to follow their dreams.  I am also planning my follow up series called "Living the Dream" to start checking off some of these items.

Of course this series won't have a regular posting time as this will take time. Maybe I will revisit these each quarter to see where I'm at. We shall see as things progress.

I again want to thank you all for following along and all of your encouragement and inspiration. I would love to know if you are doing something similar and would love to follow along if you are!

Happy Friday and get out there and live your dreams!

Quick post today. I mentioned I had some self love projects coming up in August and September and then forgot to tell you all what I was planning to do. If you wanted to follow along, I think it will be a fun (but also can be difficult) project.

August is also Happiness Happens Month. What a great month to focus on some self love!

Starting today, I am going to take a selfie of myself and then write about what I see that I love about myself. I am not planning to share all 31 photos here on the blog, but I may share some of them throughout the month on my Instagram (Are we friends here?) and on my Friday posts.

At the end of the month I am going to compile what I found out about myself from this project. I think it is important to see the good in yourself even on the hard days. Every day isn't beautiful and sometimes that's okay. Finding something positive to say can be difficult, but that is why this is such a great thing to do. It pushes me out of my comfort zone.

I am excited to start this and hope I see some of your beautiful selfies along the way!

I started writing the intro to this post a few weeks ago. It was starting to feel boring to me, as I had nothing really great to say that everyone else hasn't already said. I even debated writing this post. Then this happened. I wrote a post about body image postpartum... sort of. I had a really bad day and really fought with myself about my image and how I was feeling. It was rough. I shed a lot of tears and got a lot of great support.

But as always, with support there will always be criticism. You will always have someone who will either misunderstand you or just really want to fight with you. I get it. It happens. It is SO hard to put myself out there on the internet on a regular day, but I do it because I love sharing stories with all of you. It was SUPER hard to talk about my weight postpartum.

I want to be clear. I feel bad about my weight because I don't feel good. Like literally feel sick in my body. My body aches because of the weight. This isn't a "oh my, I am ugly now because I can't wear super tiny clothes in the middle of summer and show off my assets" kid of feeling. Also..no where did I ever post that my weight and image was more important than my child.

Yes. Someone actually attacked me for caring more about my weight then my child. *crickets chirping*

When did I say that? 

And to be honest. The ones who attacked me the most were the people I know outside of blog land. They are people who I know personally. Family members. Friends. Acquaintances. People I know who have gone through this themselves.

Why must we be so ugly to one another, even when we know how it feels?

But honestly, that's all another post for another time. Today is about an update on everything else going on, not just the weight or the pity party I threw myself.

Here's what's going on since my last postpartum update. It has been 10 weeks. Little Bloob is 16 weeks old today. Where in the world has time gone? Little man is doing great. Chattering away and rolling over. He got his big boy seat, AKA the high chair. He enjoys sitting in it watching us cook meals throughout the day. He has also starting teething, so that has been fun.

The last time I updated I was having some trouble with breastfeeding. The good news is, it got better, just like everyone said it would. I still don't produce enough for him to eat full time breast milk, but he is getting it. That is all that matters to me. He is healthy and thriving and that is most important.

I have returned back to work full-time. It's been 8 weeks already. For those of you who don't know I work from home. I am not my own boss, so I actually have a 9-5 schedule to keep. Many people think it's the best thing ever to work from home when you have a baby. Spoiler alert. It's not.

I didn't have to deal with daycare of separation anxiety, but I do have the stress of taking care of my infant while trying to get my job done. More info coming on that next week. Stay tuned.

We all know I struggled with weight gain over the past 10 weeks, so we won't get back into that. I will say I have really taken a look at my diet and have been making better choices for about a full month now. I am measuring out my portions and it really makes the difference on how I see food.

I'm learning a lot about nutrition and how to safely change my lifestyle while still providing nourishment for my son. I have watched my milk supply soar and I have watched it come to a screeching halt. My whole body is counting on the food I put in my body. I am slowly learning to accept that.

At 16 weeks I am starting to get a real handle on being a new mom. I know my kids signals and little quirks. I know when he's hungry or when he just wants to snuggle. I know that he doesn't like to eat when he's working on a poop. I get it little dude. I don't either.

I have come a long way in the last 16 weeks. I have learned so much about myself and about little human beings. I have learned to have patience and when to put everything down, including the baby and walk away for a few minutes to catch my sanity.

I am a new person everyday when I wake up. I never know what challenges will be thrown at me in this new world of parenthood.

So tell me.. How am I doing? How did your first few months of parenthood go? I'd love to hear your stories!

Happy Friday. We made it. I wasn't sure I was going to make it on Tuesday, so this is a huge accomplishment. It's been a pretty challenging week and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier now that it's the end of it. The weekend may bring some relief to the challenges but Monday they will be back.

One of those challenges brings me back to a post about my cat Grace. We decided to have some testing done because of her behavior. We got some news that could mean many things. A lot of those things may not be great news. We need to do more tests to see what's causing the issues, but my heart is breaking thinking about this. I try not to think of the worst, but it's been very hard for me not to.

Grace was my therapy kitty. I got her when I was in a very bad place a few years ago and she has helped me immensely with my anxiety. I adopted her from the shelter. We rescued each other. The thought of her not being with me tears me apart inside. As I am typing this I have tears streaming down my face. It's such an emotional topic for me.

All I can ask is, please pray for my kitty. She's 3 and has a lot of life to live still. I still need her.

I continue to remind myself that all of these challenges are helping me become a stronger person. I will get through this. So let's get on to the dreams for this week. Today marks the 2nd to last week of my 100 Dreams project. Crazy right? Next week will be my grant finale!

I hope I can push hard to find those last 10 dreams. It's gotten tough the last few weeks to really think about what I want. Let's take a look at number 81-90.

81. Learn to let go of guilt and resentment
82. Eat pastries in Paris
83. Get over my fear of public speaking and travel to speak about mental illness and self love
84. Rescue as many shelter cats as humanly possible
85.Take a cooking class to learn how to make appetizers and desserts. All the little fancy things!
86. Visit Ayana Resort in Bali to experience the floating champagne breakfast in a pool
87. Stay in a hut over the water in Figi
88. Go on a Mediterranean cruise
89. Have my photos commissioned for a great cause (I like to photograph scenery)
90. Eliminate hate in this world. Be the change. Be a leader. Make it happen.

Have a wonderful weekend, and don't forget to dream!

I have to admit, I didn't plan a post for today. I sat here last night staring at the screen, wondering what it was that needed to be said. What was on my mind? What did the interwebs need to hear from me today?

Some days it's like the universe speaks to me clearly. An idea pops up and I run with it. Other days the universe makes me work for it. Today is clearly one of those days.

It's been raining here for 3 days. The sky is gloomy and the air is thick. Needless to say it is pretty miserable outside.

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to be doing with my life in the upcoming months. I feel like I say that often, but if we aren't thinking about it, what else would we be doing? Now maybe your answer to that question is just "Going with the flow"

I'm not gonna lie, I love living life as it comes at me, but I also need to be a little smarter with my adventure attitude as I have a child to think of these days. I can't do something too rash that I leave myself in a bad situation if my plan backfires on me.

I often daydream of becoming a freelancer. Writing while the baby naps. I never considered myself a writer before starting this blog. I do enjoy writing as well as doing research. I also love reviewing products, events, and life in general.

My favorite part is interacting with everyone who comes in contact with my writing. I love to have conversation about the topics I write, even if they are challenging at times. People are my thing. I love meeting and helping people as much as I can.

Each time I have my tarot cards read by my friend, I always get cards that reference writing. Maybe it was meant to be? Maybe it is what my future holds?

I'm not really sure right now, but it sure does sound interesting. Now maybe someone will read this and will think, "Man, that Trish sure knows what she's doing in life" and will offer me a weekly writing opportunity.

I can dream right? I mean I am all about the dreams these days..

Namaste my friends.

Most days I'm an introvert to a T. Today I'm coming out of my shell a bit and inviting you to coffee. For me, I'll be having a cold brew, which is my new obsession to beat this summer heat.

You, I'd hope would order something interesting so I would have something to start the conversation with. I find that less awkward then asking about the weather.

Once we get passed the small talk I'd admit how I've been feeling in my everyday life. A bit overwhelmed and still feeling like I'm not enough.

I would tell you my mind rushes a mile a minute, but I think I've found a way to slow it down. Walking along the lake. Early morning walks in the nice breeze before the hot temps sneak up.

It's been on these walks that I've had some new ideas about my blog. Things that will be good for me, and may spark interest with some of you. I know we are all struggling with something at some point.

I'd tell you that it brings me complete joy knowing that some of my stories have helped someone else, even if I never hear about it. Sometimes the universe just lets me know. It's magical like that.

Circling back to being overwhelmed and not feeling like enough, I'd tell you about a self love project in the works for August and September. More details to come.

I'd also tell you how much I love my son more and more everyday. It's a struggle some days learning to be a mom, but I wouldn't change it for anything. This is why self love is so important.

I'd tell you I am sad that my 100 dreams project will be coming to an end in just 2 short weeks. It is because of this that I am going to do a follow up series called "Living the Dream". You can't just make lists and not expect to follow through right?

Lastly, I'd tell you I finally did the one thing I said I'd never do. I dropped my cellphone in a parking lot and shattered the screen in the upper corner. Yep. It happened. Good way to confirm that, yes indeed your phone screen is made of glass.

I'd then remember one more thing before we parted ways. Something that brought me pure joy this weekend. While cleaning out some old boxes I came across my old iPod. Like really old. The original iPod Mini. I got it for Christmas in 2005. At that moment I was glad I never parted with my iHome. Also an original, because I had no cords for the iPod. I hooked it all up and was instantly brought back to my early 20's.

Man what a feeling.

Happy Monday friends. Thanks for that chat!

Namaste.

It's that time again. Time for my next 10 dreams. I can't believe I am posting my 80th dream today! It feels like I just started this  project, and we are at 8 weeks already!

I have really loved doing this series as it reminds me that even on the really low days, I still have dreams. Once I wrap up all 100 dreams I will do some follow ups. They will all be put in one area as well so they are easier found if you had interest to see what I had on my list.

So without further adieu, numbers 71-80!

71. Commit to a healthy lifestyle with food and stick with it.
72. Backpack across southeast Asia (Thailand, Laos, Vietnam)
73. Stay in a hostel
74. Get over my fear of swimming in bodies of water
75. Create a brand that's recognized for empowering women of all body shapes
76. Visit Disney locations all over the world
77. Learn to be patient with not only myself but with others
78. Love myself unconditionally
79. Be comfortable in shorts and tank tops. It's been a LONG time
80. Own an Italian Greyhound

Check out my 100 Dreams Project Into to get started on your own list!

I hope all of your hopes and dreams come true! Have a wonderful weekend!

Namaste

Another week, another fix. This fix in particular was to pick out a dress for a wedding I am going to in August. I asked for dresses and possibly some cute shoes. I am still so self conscious over my body these days, but I am doing this for motivation.

*Edit*
I want to be honest about how these photos made me feel. These photos inflicted a chain of events that I never thought would happen. They made me address a demon that I have been avoiding since long before I had little Bloob.

I am overweight.

I know this. I have known this. This isn't something that is new to me. I went through a lot of body changes over the years. Between being happy, being depressed, moving to new places, and family drama. You name it, it probably effected my weight.

While I was pregnant with my little man I got asked about 10 times in one visit if I had gestational diabetes. This was based on them looking at me and assuming I had it because I am overweight.

I did not gain much while pregnant. In fact, I was mostly baby. I was so pleased with how well I did through the pregnancy. I was healthy, the baby was healthy, and all went well for the most part.

I am struggling more now then I have ever struggled in my life with my body image. I reached out to my personal Facebook page for help. I have received the most amazing outpour of support it brought tears to my eyes.

I forgot what it was like to ask for help. It made the difference. I posted one of the photos I took during this photo shoot I did for this post. My son was in the photo. I got such beautiful words of encouragement. I was wearing the red Evalynn brushed knit dress.

I looked again and I saw the promise in my eyes.,  the love I had for my son, and how beautiful the red looked on me.

I want to thank Stitch Fix for pulling me out of my comfort zone. For making me want to try harder. I put on these clothes and post photos of myself on the internet. That is VERY hard for me right now. I did it. I not only posted here for strangers I have never met, but in a space where all my friends, family, acquaintances, and lurkers can see me.

Thank you all for the support and kindness you have shown me. Much love.


Now onto the Fix...

French Grey Evalynn Brushed Knit Dress

Kaileigh Lennox Tie Waist Detail Dress and Report Penley Textured Mule

 I really liked this dress while not on me. It was too clingy in places I am not ready to show off. I really liked the color and the patterns, but this time I had to say no, and send it back. The heels were also sent. I thought they were really cute, but they did not fit my feet well. I have wide feet and these were just a bit too tight. They went back.

Wisp Calla Knit Maxi Dress and Bancroft Milla Circle Layer Bracelet

Oh my heart. I really love this dress, but again, don't love it on me. This postpartum body of mine is just not making me love any of these outfits on me. This one is also washing me out more than I realized. I asked for another size in this to see how it goes, but now that I see how much it washes me out I will probably return this one was well. I was also sent the bracelet. I do not really wear bracelets. It was pretty, but not for me.

I have already mentioned this in another post, but I have been struggling with my postpartum body. I know it produced life and that is something really special. I am trying to come to terms with it, but I am having a hard time with the fact that I have put on a lot of weight in the past 3 months since giving birth.

It was hard for me to post these photos. I feel like I am going in reverse with these posts. I was a bit skinnier in the last photos and to see these have really made me sad. I know I should love my body as it is, and I am sincerely trying.

I am grateful for all of the support I receive here, and I know putting myself out there like this will once again bring support, and it's for that reason I do it.

Which dress did you like the most?

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I can't wait to see all the littles in their Stitch Fix outfits!

Happy Friday folks! Man it was a long one. If you read my post from yesterday, you know it was just one of those weeks.

I had a ton of posts sort of prepped for this week, but not 100% ready to go, so that was a big fail on my part. The time just never came. Now I have all kinds of stuff for next week, which is nice.

Anywho.. I am looking forward to my weekend. I have a sort of busy day on Saturday, but all good things. My parents are coming to visit with us and then me, R, and the bloob are headed to a Jack and Jill bridal shower.

So let's get into 5 things that are worth chatting about from this week.

1. 100 Dreams Project

I can't believe I am already up to number 70! This is my seventh week sharing my dreams with all of you. It has been really eye opening and I just cant believe how easy it has become to share my inner desires with the world. Have you ever written yours down? For more info on the project, visit the intro here.

61. Fly in a glider
62. Take a honeymoon (We will be married 2 years in September and haven't done this yet)
63. Renew my vows in 20 years
64. Pose nude for an artist confidently
65. Record a song in a recording studio
66. Meet the royal family (The Winsors)
67. Show my son the world
68. Write a novel that gets adapted into a movie.
69. Visit world renowned spas around the world.
70. Practice yoga in India

2. All the books!

I went to the library this week and walked out with 4 books. That is A LOT for me. I am hoping I can read them all. They are all mostly books on business related topics. I remember a time when non-fiction books bored me to tears. Now I devour them. The more knowledge I can get, the better.
What about you? What are you reading these days?

3. Baby Bloob is 3 months old!

How in the world is that even possible?! I don't want to believe it, but he has grown so much over the past 2 weeks. He smiles more. He stays awake and interacts more. He SLEEPS more. The only thing that I am not as excited for is, he is starting to teeth.

He is not so great yet with his hands and holding things, so I had to buy one of those pacifier teethers for him. He is still a little unsure about it, but I an tell he likes the feeling on his gums. I am sure he will warm up to it soon.

It looks like he will be keeping his blue eyes. That makes this momma super happy. Everyone says he looks like his dad, but it's nice to see a little bit of me in him. He's got those Irish eyes. They make my heart melt!

Also I am still really on the fence on whether or not I want to share photos of my little. I love him to pieces and I love to talk about him, but I am still not sure I want to share his photos on the internet yet. We will see as things go, but this is how I feel right now.

If you have kids, how do you feel about sharing on your blog/social media/etc?

4. Postpartum Body

I need to remind myself I am still breastfeeding so I can't do anything too crazy, but eating better makes me feel better. The above photo is where I am currently. It is hard to tell in this photo, but I still have quite a baby pouch that needs to go bye bye.

I am more concerned about being healthy then looking good, but that would be a nice added bonus right?

5.  Amazon Prime Day

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What promotions are you most excited for? Me? I'm going to take advantage of the 3 month subscription to Audible. Now that I have Baby Bloob, I need to be hands free!

End of week thoughts

It was a very hectic week for me. I didn't accomplish much on the blog, but I crammed it all into one post today. Sorry about that. I had a lot I wanted to get posted and it just didn't happen. I am experimenting with affiliates and well here they all are!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I will see you all back  here on Monday!

Namaste

You ever have one of those weeks that kind of takes you for a loop and it throws off your whole schedule? Well that's been this week for sure. Lots of unexpected curveballs that have kept me away from my computer other then for work.

I promised myself a few months ago that I would not apologize anymore for my absences here on the blog. It is hard, but I am learning to let it happen. Life happened. What matters is that this space still brings me joy.

And it does.

Tonight I wanted to write. I wanted to just put some positive into the world. We need that from time to time. We need it from others and we need it from ourselves.

On nights like this, I sit here in silence reminding myself that even when things get tough, I am grateful. I have my beautiful little family. I have people who love me in all areas of my life. I have a roof over my head and a bountiful garden.

I am grateful.

This week on top of all of the crazy, I also decided to start eating better. Start tracking what I am eating and really putting my foot down. It has been 13 weeks since baby bloob was born. I have no excuse anymore to think I am "eating for two".

Comfort food is okay when I need comfort, but I think I have been eating like every meal will be my last. It has started to become very unhealthy for me and my small frame. The weight that I put on before the pregnancy plus the lingering weight from the pregnancy is really doing a number on my knees.

I am human.

You will be reading this on Thursday and I will be counting down the days until Friday. I'm always in a hurry these days. Trying to get to the next thing. I need to remind myself that I not only need to live the length of my life, I also need to live the width.

I need to expand myself so I don't live for the weekend every single day. That makes for a very anxious and tedious life. There's got to be more to life then just living from week to week. Sort of life living paycheck to paycheck. Never saving. Never moving forward.

I will evolve.

On nights like these I need to look at my 100 dreams list. I need to remind myself that those dreams are attainable if I would just think outside the box. Things will change once I reset my thoughts.

Tonight I am full of wonder and anxiety. I want everything to happen now. I am tired of waiting. But then I remind myself that waiting isn't the answer. I need to react and get myself in motion. Keep the mind positive. Then things will happen.

I need patience.

What has been lingering on your mind these days?