It's been a little heavy around here lately, so I thought since it's the last Friday of August, thus in my mind the last Friday of Summer, I would do a lighter post. I haven't done a "currently" post in a while so what better time then today?

Currently, I am...

Watching: Younger. I have to say, I am obsessed with this show! I watched it the first season but for some reason stopped after that. I just binge watched the whole series up to current, and I love it!



Reading: Ehh. I'm not going to lie, I have 2 book checked out from the library and another 2 I bought on my Kindle that I am at a standstill with. I really wanted to read You Are a Bad Ass at Making Money by Jen Sincero. I have it checked out and it is just sitting there. I need to get my butt in motion!

Excited for: I am going away next weekend with my best friend. We are taking a girls weekend in the mountains of North Carolina at a boutique hotel with spa. I am beyond the moon excited because there is scarce cellphone service and no televisions in the rooms. I am so ready to disconnect and just relax, read, and take in nature. Of course the blogger in me will take photos and share later for you all.

Wearing: It has been a little chilly here in central NY the last week. I have enjoyed wearing leggings and comfy hoodies. Fall has been in the air and I couldn't be more excited about that!

Loving: I am really loving my blogging tribe. They are so supportive and even when I'm down they are here giving me virtual hugs and sending all the love. You know who you guys are! Muah!

Eating: So I have been on this Cheerios kick. Like I just can't get enough of them every morning. I don't know what's happening to me. I am reverting back to being a kid.. but when I think about it, I didn't love Cheerios when I was a kid. LOL

Relaxing with: Hot baths full of essential oils. My body has been under some cray cray stress lately and I when I sit in a hot bath with lavender, peppermint, wild orange, and clove, I feel like all my worries, stresses, and aches go away. It is probably the closest thing to heaven you can get on earth!

Putting off: I am not 100% sure why I have been putting this off, but I have all these photos done to write a Transition into Fall post. I was so excited when I took the photos and I even edited them. The post was supposed to go up last week and here we are at Friday and still no motivation. Next week for the win?

Disappointed in: I have been loving my Stitch Fix box each month, so I decided to give Trunk Club (This is my referral code btw) a try, mostly for the fun of trying on more clothes. I worked with my stylist and even approved my trunk, and nothing fit me correctly. I am not saying this was their fault, I think I just overlooked some stuff on my end. I did love a pair of shoes though that I am going to keep and I will give it one more shot.

Do you ever get the feeling that you're trying to hard, and nothing gets done?

Welcome to my life.

I have been on this spiritual journey this year to help me feel more grounded and centered in my everyday life. There is just one tiny little problem.

I feel even more lost today than I did 8 months ago.

Why is that I wonder?

Me, being the person I am of course had to do some research and thinking on my own about all of this and have come to the conclusion that once you start a journey like this you open up new channels of thinking.

I have had so many great ideas and new inspiration come to me through this journey, but now I am lost on how to implement them all.

I have gotten many signs alerting me that I am on the right path and that I need to continue to move forward. Sometimes you get the response you need to let you know you are on the right path, but it is up to you to figure out how to continue the path.

This is the part that I find most frustrating. I am forever grateful for my life and the things I have, but I get so stuck on moving forward on my ideas. I have a new website sitting there with 1 post and I have yet to move forward with it.

Why is that I wonder?

I'm afraid of change? Maybe I am afraid of success more than I am of failure? That question has not been completely answered for me. As I mentioned on Monday about the solar eclipse, I am onto a new 18 month life cycle where I have set intentions of moving forward in these changes. Since the eclipse I have felt physically and mentally drained.

I can only hope this is a sign that things are moving within me and change is finally on it's way.

In the meantime I am going to make an effort to meditate everyday and practice more self care. A massage is scheduled for this weekend and I've sat for 10 minutes in mediation this morning. Here's to opening that thought process and moving forward.

How do you feel when you get lost? What are your rituals to get you back to center?

Today is the day. The solar eclipse we have all  been waiting for. Today means a lot of different things for different people. Some are only into it for the science. Some just think it's cool. For others, they use this as a day to set good intentions for the next cycle of their life.

What do I mean? Well if you follow astrology and believe in the energy and power of these events, this is a pretty powerful day. It is believed that when the eclipse happens we are setting ourselves up for 18 months. We need to be prepared to live the intentions we set today. An old cycle is coming to an end, and if  you aren't sure what is ending for you, you need to look back 18 months.



For me, I know what is ending for me. It was a very difficult 18 months, and just yesterday it literally hit me out of nowhere how much has changed, for the better from 18 months ago. I believe in this with all of my heart. I can see the cycles in my own life. Whether they are in my head or actually occurring, I guess I don't know.

I do notice my moods and performance in everyday life changing with the stars if you will. Today I need change. Today I am looking towards the sky and the energies for the next cycle of my life. I can not let myself stay down after my insanely hard week last week.

I don't want to let myself or others down by living in the negative. I need to honor those who have passed by living the best life I can live. I need to continue their missions to make this world a better place.

So grab those eclipse glasses, and maybe some stones, or sage, or anything else that helps you set good intentions and embrace today with pure love and positivity. Your 18 month into the future self will thank you.

Namaste.

The air became so insufferable, I could hardly breathe. My chest was tightening and I felt like I was losing control. Time stopped and I could not get a grip on reality. The moment lasted a lifetime. My focus zeroed in on death. Why death? Why was your name attached to the word death?

It became silent. Was I just punched in the stomach or was I shot? I couldn't tell. I should probably seek medical attention. I must be severely wounded. Where am I? Everything is different now.

That's when I felt it. The tears streaming down my face like a warm summers rain. I felt comforted and like I was drowning all at the same time. The warm tears flowed down my face as I became aware of my surroundings again.

You are gone. How is that even possible? You were just here yesterday showing us what a bad ass leader you were! You were radiant as the confidence flowed off your body. I couldn't see you, but I could hear it in your voice. You spoke with such ease.

Today my eyes are swollen. The tears continue to come. How could someone so young, compassionate, funny, amazing, be gone so soon? You had a life time ahead of you. You had many more speeches to make. You had so many more peoples lives to touch.

This was Allie every single day. Kindness.

Your last month of life was challenging for you, but you took it with a grain of salt. You smiled. You laughed. You joked about your bad luck. But no one could see this one coming. How could we? The universe played one not so funny joke on us. They made a mistake.

We were supposed to get together next month and have that drink that reminded us of paradise as we sat outside on the patio, laughing about work, life, and anything else that came up. We were all supposed to be there.

Sweet gentle soul, you have impacted my life more than you could know. I hope I told you daily how much I appreciated every thing you did for me. I have 10 minutes before I need to be to work and I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I can sign in knowing you won't be there to tell me some funny story about your cat, or how diet chocolate shakes aren't really food at all.

Please God, the universe, my angels above, give me the strength to get through this horrible time. As I stare through these swollen eyes and breath through this stuffy nose, remind me and everyone else that life is so damn precious. We all get in these places where we don't feel like we are enough.

Allie reminded me daily that I was enough. She reminded me that even on my worst days that I could do this. Today at work her presence is unknown. But today I know she is sitting with me holding my hand, reminding me that I could do this. Reminding me that she believed in me.

7 months was not long enough for this friendship. 27 years was not enough for her life.

Rest easy my beautiful friend. Your soul will forever be in my heart.

Namaste.

**I do not own the photo I posted above. Through tears I saved this because it reminded me of my dear friend. If this is yours, thank you for making this. It truly speaks volumes for the beautiful soul we lost.**

Today is the day (with a few bumps in the road! Oh technology!). A new link up is born! For those of you who are new to the blog, this link up will be a monthly link up that will occur on the third Wednesday of each month. It is a link up for entrepreneurs  to link up their latest projects, collaborations, sales, etc.



I want to share the love. Please make sure you are sharing the love as well. These should be blog posts, not just links to your business. Also share with your friends! The more people who know, the more people you can show (your business too!), and the bigger we grow!

No rules other than if you share your business, please share the love and visit someone else's page!

Each month I will be featuring a business!

Thanks! Have fun!