Welcome to my life.
I have been on this spiritual journey this year to help me feel more grounded and centered in my everyday life. There is just one tiny little problem.
I feel even more lost today than I did 8 months ago.
Why is that I wonder?
Me, being the person I am of course had to do some research and thinking on my own about all of this and have come to the conclusion that once you start a journey like this you open up new channels of thinking.
I have had so many great ideas and new inspiration come to me through this journey, but now I am lost on how to implement them all.
I have gotten many signs alerting me that I am on the right path and that I need to continue to move forward. Sometimes you get the response you need to let you know you are on the right path, but it is up to you to figure out how to continue the path.
This is the part that I find most frustrating. I am forever grateful for my life and the things I have, but I get so stuck on moving forward on my ideas. I have a new website sitting there with 1 post and I have yet to move forward with it.
Why is that I wonder?
I'm afraid of change? Maybe I am afraid of success more than I am of failure? That question has not been completely answered for me. As I mentioned on Monday about the solar eclipse, I am onto a new 18 month life cycle where I have set intentions of moving forward in these changes. Since the eclipse I have felt physically and mentally drained.
I can only hope this is a sign that things are moving within me and change is finally on it's way.
In the meantime I am going to make an effort to meditate everyday and practice more self care. A massage is scheduled for this weekend and I've sat for 10 minutes in mediation this morning. Here's to opening that thought process and moving forward.
How do you feel when you get lost? What are your rituals to get you back to center?
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