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Year End Honesty

As R and I drove back from my parents house on Christmas night, I was lost in thought about how this year didn't go as planned. At first I was sad and a bit upset about this, but then I started thinking. Was it really as bad as I thought it was, or was this the normal thought for this time of year?  Christmas always seems like the time of year when we all focus on all of the things we don't have. The year is ending and we focus on what we didn't accomplish.  Why do we do that?

I started thinking back to all of the things I wanted to accomplish in 2015. I started thinking about this blog and what I posted here. It started out as a place to write down my thoughts on products and ended up turning into a diary of sorts. Even when I talked about something specific, I still tied it into my everyday life. You can't really write about something you didn't experience right?

I looked at past posts and realized how often I gave excuses for things I didn't do, or places I complained for not good reason. Was I really that miserable this year? Had I allowed myself to get so far into the negative that I forgot about the good things?

I thought about the things I didn't post about. How I reconnected with a friend from my past, only to have it cut short by his untimely death. It makes me wonder why these things happen as they do. Then there was the uphill battle of depression. I fought the feelings so much this year, only to finally give in and realize I needed to do something about it. I lost my relationship with my brother. We have not really had a conversation in 6 months. I dealt with getting engaged and not having the support from people we hoped would be there for us.

The lessons I learned this year can be looked at as struggles, but looking at them now, I understand they have shaped me into something I thought was long gone. I still have fight in me. I can still stand tall and find strength in the hard times. R always told me he fell in love with me because of how strong I was. He admired my will to fight even when everyone tried to prove me wrong.

That alone makes me want to do better. Be better. Move forward and think about the positive.

I know who I am. If you don't, maybe it's time you get to know me.

Even with all my struggles, I am still ending this year with things I am proud to say I accomplished.

I found a new job that I absolutely love to go to everyday. I thought that was an impossible goal. It does exist if you are willing to take a risk.

I have friends and family who are willing to stand behind me no matter what the circumstance.

R and I are still in love and ready to take the next step into marriage in 2016. We have been through hell and back, but we are still here and are excited more than ever to start our lives together.

As far as this space goes, I got myself on and off track what feels like a million times this year, but I am not going to look at that as a failure. I am going to see it as testing the waters. Taking risks. 2016 is going to be an open canvas and I can't wait to see what I create..

Thank you to all of you who have stood by my side this year. It was not only me going through this roller coaster, but you all were along for the ride. Whether we have met before or not, I hope to spend more time with you in the upcoming year. I hope to get to know you all even better. And most importantly I hope we all can continue to help one another grow and prosper in whatever it is we want to accomplish.

If I don't see you again before then, have a happy and safe rest of 2015. Don't sweat the big things and focus on the little things you can change to make the big things happen!


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2015 Yearly Wrap - Part 1

It's that time again. We are running out of days in this calendar year. We are all scrambling to achieve all of our goals and then somewhere in the middle of December we all say screw it, and focus on Christmas. Today I want to start recapping my year. It has been a real roller coaster, but I think by documenting it properly, I can see where I went wrong. What I can do to change it. And what was the best parts. I am going to do this in 3 increments. So that means 4 months each week for 3 weeks. Lets see how January - April went...



I started my year in Nashville. It was a birthday present from R (Remember my birthday is New Years Eve). I had a magical time but I wish the weather would of been nicer! It was colder in Music City than it was in Times Square folks! While on this trip I also got to visit Louisville, Kentucky where I have family. It was amazing to see cousins I haven't seen in years and to meet my 2nd cousins. My uncle was a fabulous host. Such a great start to the year.

I also decided to start a happiness project. My first goal for the project was R & R (Re-focus and Relax)

While on the runway getting ready to head home to New York I signed up for a 6 week Stress Relief Yoga class. That was probably one of the best ideas I made all year. It started my journey to dealing with stress in a better way. It also inspired me to write some yoga newbie tips..

One of my most viewed of the year was written in January. How to order eyeglasses online. I loved this post because I spend a good portion of my adult life working in the optical business. It went on to be featured later in an online publication for women! I was an optician and sometimes miss working with people to find the perfect look for them!



February was a pretty chill month for me. My happiness project goal was Fitness and Friendship. I did really well this month, meeting a new friend who has become a close friend.

I wrote a fun post on creating your own spa experience at home with Bath Teas. It snowed a lot. Winter was pretty over the top this year. I don't recall many times when there wasn't some form of snow happening. 

Me and R attended a Valentines brunch at a friends house where she make homemade heart pop tarts! They were so good!

I attempted an e-book reading challenge that failed miserably. Maybe I will try again this year. See what happens.

I ended the month with a yoga-thon! It was a lot of fun on top of challenging. 



March brought on another round of The Blog Staycation. I absolutely love the resources and community this event brings to the table of blogging. Look for information soon for the winter 2016 Staycation!

My March Happiness Project goal was organization!

I attended a Pi day party at a local brewery. We brought pies, they supplied the beer. It's a win/win!

I started a 10 minute fitness challenge on my blog that kind of died out quickly. I need to get back into that in 2016. I always enjoyed it!



I started gearing up for my move. My lease to my apartment officially ended on April 30th. I was moving in with R and was quickly trying to get some organization into effect. My happiness project goal was organization part 2. I didn't get as much done in March as I had hoped to this goal got extended and accomplished!

I wrote a lot about wellness in April. This was more to help me achieve all those goals I set for myself, and maybe help someone else. I wrote about many topics including exercise, water, and not feeling well due to stress

I attended my first ever fancy tea party and cut my hair! I attended a lot of local events which really made me want to blog more about my city. I did some and then fell uninspired once again. Another goal to get back into in 2016.

I hosted my final party in my apartment. It was so bitter sweet. I loved that little house!

So there you have it! My first third of my year! Stop back next Monday to see part 2!

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