Friday I had to take my yoga certification practical test. This basically means I had to teach an hour long class by myself, to a class of 2 or more. I had 4 students plus my teacher in house while I taught. I was super nervous and honestly had nothing planned. I had to prove to myself that if I were meant to be a teacher, I could do it without a plan.
I knew everyone who came to the class except one person. It was comforting and scary all at the same time. I kept listening to myself teach, criticizing myself along the way. I was halfway through my class and I wanted to quit. My internal voice chattered up a storm while I tried to stay focus. I had to start breathing and put myself into a more meditative state in order to continue.
I let my own voice try to sabotage my test. I ended up completing my class and passing with flying colors, but my self doubt got to me. It reminded me that I needed to check my self doubt at the door and remember I could do these things. I was training. I was ready. My internal chatter never made it's way out to the open where the rest of the world could hear. I was grateful for that.
I am happy to announce I am now a real teacher. That alone is a great accomplishment.
Now let's continue on with the crazy. We got up super early on Saturday to head down to Pennsylvania for a friends wedding. We also stopped along the way to visit another friend. The wedding was pretty great and I enjoyed seeing some friends and enjoying some good food. We got back to NY at around 11:30pm and I was beat. I passed out immediately and hoped to get plenty of sleep.
I was up early on Sunday to prepare for my essential oils class and for the arrival for my parents. I had a very successful class with lots of knowledge. It amazes me every day the things I can learn. New gifts to share with the world. It's amazing.
I am so exhausted today, but can't complain. It was a weekend surrounded by friends and family and that is something I needed.