Wednesday, June 28, 2017

The Truth Is

The truth is, I'm scared. I sit in front of this computer day in and day out wondering what I should say. What story am I going to tell today? Am I sorry? Am I tired? Am I okay? Am I not good enough for this? Some days I really don't know.

What I do know is I am lost. I am not sure who I am right now. Some say this is normal. Some don't understand what that looks like.

Mentally, I feel the best I have felt in a long time, but I'm tired. Physically, I am exhausted. I have been on this journey to really find my purpose and who I really am since last year. It really kicked into gear when I decided to take on yoga teacher training in January.

I have read book after book talking about self care, self awareness, and self help. All of the same topics come up in each book. They all say the same things over and over again.

You must let it go. You must not let anyone else guide you to do something that does not feel comfortable to you. This does not mean the journey itself will not be uncomfortable, but it must be your uncomfortable.

The truth is, this morning I did something that made me utterly uncomfortable, but now I sit here writing that I did it. What is that something? Well you will have to come back tomorrow and see.

Today my Truth is, is that I can feel uncomfortable and also accomplished at the same time.

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Friday, June 9, 2017

What Teaching Feels Like

Happy Friday lovelies! I am so excited to tell you all about my first teaching experience. Last Friday, I walked into the unknown. I walked into a studio for the first time in which I was unfamiliar. I was also not feeling my best. I sat anxiously waiting for my students. How many would there be? Would anyone show up? These were my questions. I had no idea. I took a stab in the dark and arrived at a very unfamiliar, scary place. A place of the unknown.

After a few minutes, 3 women got out of their car and made their way up to the studio with mats. I was thrilled and scared all at the same time.

It was a woman and her 2 daughters. Only one of them had done any form of yoga in the past and they were at my will to learn. I was in control and I was shaking in my boots.

I had planned only about a 45 minute class due to it being the first time, but because of the small class we had pretty much the full hour. It challenged me to create and make decisions on the spot. It was liberating to have a class listen to me and understand what I was telling them to do was a good thing.

At the end of the class I was able to get feedback from them. I told them not to hold back. They all said they thought it was great and I did a good job. They said being beginners they didn't know what to expect and they appreciated my attention to all of them.

I felt so good being able to guide these 3 ladies into a yoga practice, even with a few bumps along the way.

Now tonight is the real test. I have been told there will be more coming to this class... wish me luck!

Stay tuned!

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Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Create Magic

Oh hey.. I didn't see you there... I mean I haven't showed up lately so I wasn't expecting you to either. But here you are. I thank you.

I didn't plan to take a few days weeks off. I got super pulled into a few other projects and here we are. But no shame. Those projects are inspiring my writing. They are giving me stories to share here on my beloved blog.

I woke up this morning and got a sign that I needed to write today. Something about today needed to happen on this blog. I am putting all my faith in that the Universe knows what it's doing.

I had an assignment today and I showed up. For that I'm very fortunate to feel like I've finally tapped into a clearer mind and letting so much of the mind chatter go.

 Hearing things more clearly now. Things are finally starting to happen in the direction I was aiming for.

I need to share with you all my very first, brand new yoga class. It happened. I survived and I'm geared up for my next one this week.

Friday. Come back Friday.


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