Dear Trish,
It's your half birthday. You're halfway to 43. You've learned so much about yourself and I wanted to remind you about how magical you are even through all the struggles you've endured.
A little over a decade ago you decided to move away from all of your friends and family for a reason that ended up breaking you in more ways than you can comprehend, but you know now it wasn't for nothing.
This heartbreak pushed you into the start of your healing journey that started putting you back together. Your scars slowly healed as you faced the world around you. It introduced you to people and places that would ultimately change your life.
Those first couple of years were scary and lonely as you started to uproot all of your fears and traumas. You learned to slowly trust again and even found love.
You got married and welcomed your son, but the feeling of loneliness never really went away. You found more reasons to believe you weren't good enough - not good enough wife. Not good enough mother. Not good enough daughter. Not good enough friend.
You often felt misunderstood when you were only trying to be the best person you could be to every person you encountered. The misunderstandings became toxic relationships that lead to doubt. But you kept on persisting even when it got harder.
You cried so many times in life over people. People not liking you. People not loving you. People bullying you. People forgetting about you. People not being the person you always tried to be for them.
When you turned 40 and learned about your ADHD diagnosis, things started to click, and the way you viewed the world as a child made a little more sense. You've always loved hard and got lost in the emotions of life. You processed things so deeply that as a child, you couldn't understand why others didn't do the same.
You worked day in and day out to stay in the light. To remember that you are worthy of all the things you dream of.
My sweet magical girl, there was always light wedged between the dark wherever you were. You found joy hidden where you didn't think possible. That's the magic within you.
The healing journey never quite ends once you start down the path. You have walked it with grace through pain, tears, loss and grief. You have learned that this path has built a story unique to you, but one that can and has influenced others.
Today I want you to remember that you are resilient. People look up to you and admire you because you never gave up. You push every day through pain and discomfort and still find ways to show up for everyone that you love. If that isn't magic, I dont know what is.
Not every day will be perfect and you may have had to re-vamp what you thought life should have looked like, but it's always in progress. Life is a beautiful mess of ups and downs.
Keep being you. Keep moving forward. Keep remembering you are always supported.
As for those people who turned toxic, they never got to know the real you. They never gave you a chance. And you know what? That's okay. You will persist without them.
Happy halfway around the sun my love. You deserve your wildest dreams no matter how absurd they are 😉.
